For the past couple weeks I have been mulling over several ideas on what to write about next. Now, as I sit down to put my jumbled thoughts on paper (or should I say screen?) they all fled, and I am left with a tired, empty head. Well, ok, not entirely empty because fragments of those deep, enlightened thoughts remain, more jumbled than ever and very elusive. I cannot make my brain focus on one thought long enough to pull it from the dusty box in which it has been hiding so I can reveal its full shape. Reminds me of fairies and other mythical creatures. You see it for a split second and then it is gone, leaving you wondering whether you saw anything at all.
As I mentioned, I had had several ideas to write about. I am horrified to find that I cannot even remember what they roughly concerned. Please forgive me, its Tuesday, and Tuesdays are not the best day of the week, even more so than Wednesday. Monday is my best school day because I feel somewhat refreshed after my weekend (ideally anyway), Tuesday is like, “oh, another eight o’clock class – and a boring class at that- and its back to real grind of school. Wedsneday, hump day, is like, “its the middle of week. one more day and I will be done.” Thursday is, yes, last day. keep breathing, keep breathing, keep breathing, you can do this. So, at the moment, I am struggling to stay awake with my Coke Zero, sitting in B&N, pointlessly typing rambles. You know, everytime I see the word ‘rambles’ I think of Peter Rabbit. Or the Mother West Wind Stories. I think its cause it rhymes with ‘brambles’ which I associate with rabbits and furry little creatures. Which also reminds me of the ideal nursury I would have – decorated in Beatrice Potter. That way it could be either a girl’s or boy’s nursury, and I wouldn’t have to change it. Mrs. Tiddlewinks was my favorite character. I’m not really sure why…. she was just so cute and plump.
Another damp, chilly October day. Weather like this is slightly depressing. All one sees are clouds, heavy gray ones too. Everything is wet, which somehow makes it all the more depressing, I think its cause it is darker and looks damp.
One thing I could have blogged about was the fact that this is my last day as a twenty year old. What do you call that anyway? You have babies, toddlers, preteens, teens, then you’re not a teen anymore, and then all of a sudden, you’re a total adult. Those thre years between the 18 and the 21, is that like a mini adult? So now I will no longer be a half-way adult, but a full fledged adult legally? Weird. Am I ready for this? I mean, this is a big step, not like I could stop time, but come on- having full responsibility in the eyes of the legal system is a pretty heavy bag. Most people automatically think, oh hey you can drink now! Yes, I can, and I suppose for some thats a big thing. No more sneaking in with a fake IDs, now they don’t have to feel about it. I don’t think a drink or two is bad, because the Bible never says ‘thou shalt not drink’ but it does say, ‘the dissipation of wine is bad’ or something to that effect. That was about all they drank in Jesus’ time. Its kinda like money, money itself is not evil, but the love of money is. They are innate objects which cannot be evil by themselves, but are by how they’re used. Not that I plan on going drinking or anything, but I just wanted to clarify my view on the subject.
(and this was cranberry juice. I liked the red against the multi-colored background)
Well, for not having anything to write about I sure ended up with a long post. I apologize for its pointless ramblings and rather confusing structure. At least I can say I have posted something.